Am I going end up alone?

I am 19 years from a growing city in the highlands of Scotland. I have no job and I can't get into colage or uni. I live with my parents and I don't get out house unless I am paying stuff I need or church on Sundays. I spend my days play video games. I am about 5,9 tall and I way 10.05 stone. blue eyes pale skin and frekals alover. I did have one girl friend once and were sirius she gave her my ring as token as a sign that one day I will ask her to marry me and she was asking me how would feel if was father. I told her when comes to children it's up to her. I meen don't get me wrong I would love to have a son or dauter. But I just can't stand that fact that she would be in pain and would partly my falt. But she dumped me becose she was told my the doctors that she was bipolar and she told me she did not want to hert me. It's been over a year since then and she is with some else now. So what do you think I am prity mested up hah.